Blissful Cruelty
They say love is blind, but I know this isn’t true love. Yet I’m certain of my feelings. In the heart of my gut I know I’m not yours, but you care for me so genuinely. This is violence and I’m torn; convincing myself that you truly love me.
You’re competent in every deficiency in my weary life.
It’s in the way you look upon me, like ultra-vision. Seeing beyond my nakedness and into the darkness of my weary soul.
The way we communicate. You understand my story; I swear you’re the author. Rewriting each chapter with a beautiful climax ensuring ecstasy in the end. You introduced me to freedom. Being happy as a child, yet I finally feel like a man. True freedom!
Demanding only the best while requesting very little; always happy with me, always content. I’m craving you forever, but I can’t be greedy. For you do not belong to me, and my significant other is no consolation. A self-promoted household sergeant, she’s broken my image of home and left it reflective of a prison.
Her scratchy voice; cuts me like a super power. The person I fell in love with, has morphed into a complete stranger; a medium of annoyance, a constant echo of frustration and misery. Still, this description depreciates alarmingly. The owner of my wedding band, yet you command the rights to my heart. Hastily I would surrender to you.
You really make me feel like a man. Keeping my feet planted firmly on the ground while I keep yours in the sky. My head bowed; we’re both high on pleasure. Pleasure beyond measure. Until I have to leave you again.
“Urghh!”
I always need more of you. All of you. This drives me insane. It can’t be in vain.
Yet I can’t take it to the bank. For there’s no assurance in our business. You cause my heart and mind to disagree. Which one can I trust? None of them are helping. I’m so lost.
I’m down to mere wishes now. Hungry for magic like an infant. I wish my wed would vanish.
Right now. Forever.
And you, could rescue my sanity. Love me to eternity.
